23 April 2007


Sick baby. Need I say more?

It's been a rough couple of days but thanks be to God we're seeing her doctor at 2 this afternoon. Also, this will be our first sick visit in her short 14.5 month life so far, so go us! I credit her realative health to the fact that I am so not a germ-a-phobe. Other than a few 24 hour sniffles and a bit of a stomach bug once (probably because I fed her something she wasn't ready for), this is the sickest she's been. However, I'm inclined to think she's making up for lost time. Nothing like watching the Discovery channel at midnight with a space heater baby on your chest, dripping snot onto your neck. But at the same time, I can't say I didn't take pleasure in how damn cuddly she was, considering she rarely sits still there days. Still, I'm praying she gets better soon because this is no fun for any of us.

12 April 2007

To feel whole again

Oh internet, sweet friend of mine, so good to have you back. All your familiar sites I like to visit and read, the news I need in order to not feel like I live in a mommy vacuum, not to mention that pesky job I have where I need to have email access to work. I was so sad when you wouldn't work, and when the comcast person couldn't help me much over the phone I was nearing a panic attack. How did I live before you were such a part of my daily life? I have no idea, but it's not a place I ever want to go again. Although I must admit it was nice to open my email and see so many messages in there all at once. I felt so loved. Too bad most weren't all that fun.

10 April 2007

14 months

Yesterday you turned 14 months old. Crazy how fast time flies, isn't it? You were the center of attention at Easter dinner and you loved every minute of it. You walk so well now, able to get up without pulling up on anything. You know a doggie says "woof," but to you, most animals say "woof." Except the littlest piggy, who goes "WEEWEEWEEWEE" in your highest pitched voice. You will say "yes" but it sounds more like "yeths." So damn cute. Unfortunately, you've also learned how to say "no" and shake your head when you don't want to do something. Scary. You've started to wiggle your shoulders and bob your head when you dance, which cracks daddy and I up to no end. You never sit still, which can be a good thing as you are taking pretty decent naps these days as I can only imagine all that walking around tires you out. Your smile still lights up my day, and I love it when you come over and throw yourself on me in a full body hug.

I'm still dealing with my demons, but therapy has been going well and I feel like I'm learning a lot about myself. Unfortunately, I'm also worried that I'm going through premature ovarian failure (so much nicer sounding that premature menopause when you are only 29) because I've been having worse and worse hot flashes, not to mention insomnia, pretty bad. Something is not right when it's 30 degrees on Easter morning and I'm trying to pick out something to wear that won't show sweat. I'm putting off calling the doctor as long as I can, because part of me doesn't feel like I can deal with any new dramas in my life. We've been pretty drama free lately, enough so that we're going to redo the kitchen floor and pay someone to fix the utility sink downstairs. But I'm not sure how much longer I can put it off. It's 8:45am and cold out again and as I sit typing in my lightweight cotton pajamas, I'm thinking of opening the window.

I love you sweet Natalie, and can't wait to see how much you grow and mature in the next month.

03 April 2007

Busy busy busy

Lots going on. To sum up:

#1 - Jerome is dead. Despite being a no-kill mouse trap, he was one stiff little critter in there when we discovered him. Perhaps it was an allergic reaction to the peanut butter we put in there?

#2 - Natalie got a black eye at the Y from running full steam ahead into a chair. Yikes.

#3 - Mom and dad bought a vacation house! Shocking!! I grew up thinking only rich people did this, but it really is a smart investment. They have property and are close to the beach and in a quiet town on the bay...they will either retire to this house and put an addition on it, or sell it in 5-10 years and use the money they are sure to make on it to buy their dream home. In the meantime, FREE VACATIONS WITH BABYSITTING. Who could ask for more?

#4 - Did I mention we had a chicken in our backyard? I didn't? Well, I thought it was a hurt goose or something but no, it was a rooster. In our yard. Sqwaking away. Natalie was fascinated, and we did what any good suburbanite would do when confronted with a barn yard animal: We took pictures (sorry it's blurry, but that was one fast rooster). #5 - Once the black eye healed up, Natalie did a face plant on the sidewalk. Scraped up her cheek and her nose. I think I cried more than she did. So much for taking some cute Easter pictures under our pink blooming cherry tree.

#6 - I've started work on this big freelance project and I can't believe they are paying me to write about things I don't even understand. I'm just taking the research they give me and turning it into paragraphs and crossing my fingers that it all makes sense to someone who understands.