10 April 2007

14 months

Yesterday you turned 14 months old. Crazy how fast time flies, isn't it? You were the center of attention at Easter dinner and you loved every minute of it. You walk so well now, able to get up without pulling up on anything. You know a doggie says "woof," but to you, most animals say "woof." Except the littlest piggy, who goes "WEEWEEWEEWEE" in your highest pitched voice. You will say "yes" but it sounds more like "yeths." So damn cute. Unfortunately, you've also learned how to say "no" and shake your head when you don't want to do something. Scary. You've started to wiggle your shoulders and bob your head when you dance, which cracks daddy and I up to no end. You never sit still, which can be a good thing as you are taking pretty decent naps these days as I can only imagine all that walking around tires you out. Your smile still lights up my day, and I love it when you come over and throw yourself on me in a full body hug.

I'm still dealing with my demons, but therapy has been going well and I feel like I'm learning a lot about myself. Unfortunately, I'm also worried that I'm going through premature ovarian failure (so much nicer sounding that premature menopause when you are only 29) because I've been having worse and worse hot flashes, not to mention insomnia, pretty bad. Something is not right when it's 30 degrees on Easter morning and I'm trying to pick out something to wear that won't show sweat. I'm putting off calling the doctor as long as I can, because part of me doesn't feel like I can deal with any new dramas in my life. We've been pretty drama free lately, enough so that we're going to redo the kitchen floor and pay someone to fix the utility sink downstairs. But I'm not sure how much longer I can put it off. It's 8:45am and cold out again and as I sit typing in my lightweight cotton pajamas, I'm thinking of opening the window.

I love you sweet Natalie, and can't wait to see how much you grow and mature in the next month.

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