08 May 2009

Day 12

stupid stupid stupid.

I got on the scale yesterday at the Y. Was feeling good, I've really been making smart choices, not eating bread, sugar, pasta, anything like that. What did I weigh? 2 more pounds than when I weighed myself two weeks ago at the start of all this. Fuck. However, if this month goes like next month, I'll be getting my period this weekend, which would be awesome. So I'm trying to convince myself that these 2lbs are just pre-period bloating/water weight. But it's hard. And if I do get my period this weekend, do I go weigh myself afterwards? Probably shouldn't, but that's going to be hard to. I'm so desparate to see a change, even a little one, that it's going to be hard to restrain myself.

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